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A Shift

It’s been a emotional week for a few of the girls in the home.

It started with bringing a bunch of the younger girls to my hotel to play and while inside to get water, 6 year old Mou ran into the edge of a glass door and got a horrible cut on her forehead. I picked her up right away and it wasn’t until the guys working here running over with napkins that I saw she had blood pouring down her face. Poor thing was so scared. She was a mess, I was a mess, we bonded. Then I watched her while she took a nap to make sure she was breathing. Yup, going to be that mom.

Mothers Day was emotional for a few girls. Some really miss them and a few have lost their mothers. Misty and Smrity lost their mother just last October. It’s not very encouraged to cry and grieve in this culture. I don’t know how much they have since her death but Mothers Day Smrity really grieved. It just took me saying you can cry and she didn’t stop. It was clear she really needed to. They were told she had a heart attack. Some think she was murdered by her husband.

A few of the girls last week have been talking to me about wanting to leave the home. Some I don’t think would ever do that but one in particular I was worried about how she was talking. She was saying how she wouldn’t live with her mom at Banishanta but could live with her aunt somewhere else and she would take care of her. Talking to a 10 year old about the reality of what could happen to her is painful to say the least. I don’t sugar coat anything when I talk to them because it’s their reality and they need to be aware. I had to tell her she might not be safe with her aunt and could be sold. It’s not usually the mom that is dangerous, but their mothers pimps. They want to trust their mothers but it just can’t be done. I couldn’t help but cry when I was talking to her. I think she realized the seriousness of the situation. Breaks my heart they can’t trust people in their family. I’m so glad they feel safe to talk to me about the things they do. There was a big shift this week for some of the girls and my relationship. Something I was asking God to open up and He did. And I’m realizing just how much as I’m writing right now.

Time has really gone by fast, can’t believe I’ve been here for almost 5 months but at the same time it feels like I’ve been gone a while. I’m really missing my family and friends now. I know my blogs can be heart breaking to read sometimes so thank you for being with me and for the support and encouragement as I try to find ways to support and encourage them. I’ve learned a lot in the last 5 months, to say the least. Still praying about what I want to do next. It’s not clear quite yet. It’s a tough but exciting time to be in.

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6 Responses to “A Shift”

  1. Jeremy Berlin says:

    Thank you for opening up our eyes to the realities of life in this world. I admire your heart, passion, love and drive. I seriously put you up there next to the greats.
    Ps. You look like a Bangladeshi princess!

  2. Katie W says:

    My favorite post so far, hard to imaging being in their shoes 🙁

  3. Michelle says:

    Love this Mags, you’re impacting them more than you know!

  4. Krista M says:

    Maggie, I love what you’re doing. I’m so proud of you! The girls are beautiful and they’re luck to have your love, comfort and a wonderful example of a strong independent woman to look up to. They need you. Keep on truckin! Love you

  5. Lori says:

    The stories keep going. You have made such a difference to those girls. God bless you and the girls. I pray that God will reveal what’s next for you … and for the girls’ safety. 🙂

  6. Simon & Chrystine says:

    I agree with Katie. My favorite post yet. You amaze me mags. I admire your selflessness. It’s truly inspiring. We love you!

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